It helped, as did re-reading the Franny section of Franny and Zooey, by J.D. Salinger, and launching right into the Zooey section and talking to my sister and going to rehearsal and listening to the Prologue and the Tour Guide on the backstage monitor, where a tv screen shows the set, dimly, and all the people of Middletown as glowing, ghostly figures but somehow so very real.
"You must change your life," said Rilke. So that's what I keep doing. I've been an encyclopedia editor, a poetry editor, an actor and director, a library clerk, and an assistant professor of English. Now I'm a freelancer, work part time in a library, blog "eight days a week," study the random, tend perennials, and listen to birdsong.